Tender mercies

I can't believe the holidays have already come and gone. We had a wonderful Christmas with our families. And we had the opprutunity to go down to Salt Lake twice to see the lights at temple square. They are so beautiful and such a wonderful feeling each time I went down. The holidays felt a little different this year. I have so much I am thankful for and things to reflect back on in 2014. It seems like forever ago when I found out about Hoss and his diagnos with anencephaly. Through these last five months I have had my ups and downs for sure, but I had gained a stronger testimony of the plan of salivation and I know FAMILIES CAN BE TOGETHER FOREVER! I want to try harder to be better each day, so I can be with Hoss again. And how awesome for my kids to have a brother to be fighting for his siblings on the other side! I also know the that our Heavenly Father is so merciful! In this last month I have seen it time and time again. It is truly amazing! For instance I got on etsy to order Hoss a little blessing outfit to be buried in. I had to order a newborn size. I told the sweet lady the story about Hoss and about my blog. She was happy to make it for us. A few weeks went by and she emailed me and told me she is sending it in the mail and don't worry about paying her. She wanted to make it for me and for baby Hoss. Oh I was so overwhelmed and could not thank her enough! Another similar instance was I ordered a little onesie with an H on it for when Hoss is born. I needed a preemie size and she had never made one that small. I told her our situation and she to is sending it out for no cost. I am so so grateful for kind people in this world. I hope in the future I can pay it forward as these kind ladies have done for our family!

I also want to thank the social dance club for their generosity towards our family. And also to the great community we live in. I was amazed the money that was donated for our family!

I am so blessed and have seen so many tender mercies and know I will see more in the weeks to come.  I went to the doctor this last week and Hoss is continuing to grow. We have decided to deliver Hoss by c-section on February 2nd. It is just a few short weeks away and I can't wait to meet him. I am also very nervous and don't want this pregnancy to end. He is a mover and I love to just watch my belly and see him kick. 

I know I can't be selfish and I know our Heavenly Father has a greater mission for him on the other side. I know he is going to do a great work! He has already blessed my life! I am so honered to be his mom! 

I know the power of prayer is real! I have never prayed so much and so hard in these last five months. I know my Heavenly Father loves me and will help me through these next few weeks.